I learned that in order to get over pain is to move forward. Don't worry, this entry is not about complaining about my work conditions but I am here to reflect on certain things.
I remember writing myself a letter after I've reached my 24th birthday. In that letter, I was reminding myself of my dreams and my ambitions. At that time, the longing to accomplish so much was great and so was the dream of loving someone; of holding someone close to my arms. That letter was burning with emotions of a hopeful 24-year-old. Not knowing how her life would be after that fateful year.
I can't say I've experienced that much; but for the past two years, things have moved so fast in my life. Was I impulsive at that time. At some instances. Yes. Do I regret all of the things I've done. No.
I sound vague in this one but not really, to those who really know me and who have been always listened to me should know what I am talking about.
The past two years was like a spiral of emotions and memories. There were bad ones and good ones. Neither bad nor good; our experiences are here to teach us a lesson. But are we ready to jump into chaos? Are we ready to take the risk? Never mind the result---that would be for later.
Or are you busy wading on safe waters; cautious of not even letting your fragile heart feel an inch of love or pain?
Human beings are such fragile creatures. We are comfortable at comformity. And how we are afraid of change.
As for me. I did what every person can do once in their lifetime. Do something crazy. Yes I did. I was impulsive. Yet there I was; I offered my heart to him not knowing what the consequences would be.
I regret nothing.
It doesn't matter if I don't have a decent job or anything. We're just starting...
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Each step is small, yet eagerly we await for spring to bloom.
My dreams are not mine any longer but it now also belongs to you.
Love, let's be patient and hold on together.
I'm not asking for anything to go smoothly; I never really want to rush into things.
Love, I never asked you to be perfect.
I love you because I love you.
You and our son are the greatest gift I've ever had for years.
I can't promise to be ideal; no I can't guarrantee that.
I love you because I love you.
You put my pieces together.